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Cotard ref sheet redo!
Updated character info under the cut:
- The Soul/Mr. Capgras/Cotard/The Stars
- He/it
- SELF-iSH
- Whole’s “self” - who he is at his core. His identity and personality at its most raw form.
- He’s the most in-tune with Will’s actual state of being (health, emotions, etc.) and considers himself to somewhat be William, but separated and with pieces of himself missing.
- Ultimate goal is to become a Happy Healthy and Alive Whole. Unlike in CCCC, the self-destruction is left more to H/M in this one .
- Knows he needs to get Heart and Mind to work together if he wants to keep William good and well, but he’s growing incredibly tired throughout the loops. He primarily experiences Will’s worst moments and rarely gets a break. Spends most of him life trying to get these. Fuckers. to get along and he’s so incredibly done with both of them. Growing distant, but ultimately does care about H/M on a personal level and really wishes they could all be happy together.
- He gets scissors in place of a trident because I thought that could be neat :] when he pulls them out of the halo they get larger and sharper. Tbh it mostly just uses them for normal scissor stuff. Very occasional violent threats.
- Patterns depicted here are based on the Self-ish cover. In this ref they’re the hmsw colors, but could technically kinda be anything. They’re super inconsistent, both in canon for character reasons and also because. trying to keep up the same patterns every time I draw him would be torture :’] if you're drawing them you can kinda do whatever you want tbh so long as it sorta resembles what's pictured here/on the album cover.
- Most intimidating/strongest-looking. Middle in height, and worst in posture. Sleep deprived, somewhat empty and bitter but still hopeful and surprisingly optimistic.
- I’d like to think if his socks are ever shown, they’d have the same patterns as his gloves n stuff
#chonny jash#cccc#wwww au#William's Wanton Weary Wiles#cj soul#chonny's charming chaos compendium#appalling mustelid tornado
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It's a Doozy™ tonight, folks
#i am in. so much pain#i love my niece more than life itself but it's killing me watching her this week#like. i just need to sit and play with her most of the time and i cant do that without pain#and she's at the testing boundaries age so i have to jump up and stop her from like messing with the baby gate and that#i'm only 30 this shouldn't be my life#and it's hard to feel like there's any hope when you have a degenerative incurable condition lmao#it's only gonna get worse from here#i try to be a hopeful and optimistic person#but i feel like that last test result broke me because i had so much hope for it#and i had so much hope for my surgery before that#I've been reading a book about dysautonomia my PT told me about and i know things feel awful because I'm literally in fight or flight 24/7#and hopefully things won't seem as bad after my niece goes home#because this feels like the universe rubbing in my face that i want to be a mother but i physically can't be one rn#anyway niece is in bed so i can rest for the night at least time to distract myself from The Horrors#becca babbles#spoonie post
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something i genuinely adore about tadc is how painfully flawed everyone in the circus is. and not in a small way
everyone does SOMETHING that negatively impacts the others. but it makes the fact that you are supposed to sympathize with and really connect with them all the more potent. because its easy to want to put a bunch of characters in a bad situation together and to just have them all be nice to each other and everyone and never make mistakes because theres no reason to hurt each other, and most of them dont TRY to, but the way they cope is so, so realistic for each of their personalities, and it doesnt always mesh with the others, and sometimes it exceeds self destructive and Just Hurts Others, Too
they still generally care about each other and the mistakes they make and the ways they end up hurting each other dont lose their weight but like. it doesnt take away from their humanity and the fact that they are all trying so hard to manage in an awful situation
and the characters seem to have sooome sort of understanding of this too. not fully, because the characters dont tend to be 100% communicative, but when they hurt each other, it often makes EVERYONE uncomfortable. because these are the only people they have. these are their friends. and theyre all coping. but it doesnt change how much it affects them (best illustrated by ragathas lines at the start of ep 2 or gangles 'i love her, but after a while it gets kinda hard to tell how genuine shes actually being'). its not all like this, theres a good amnt of variety, but characters knowing this but not really knowing what to do about it is very painful in an effective way
(i think a subtle example of this is how zooble handles gangles situation in ep 4- they were so genuinely trying to help her because they care. but could tell as the day went on that oh, this is not working at all and its making things worse, and they leave gangle alone- something that very genuinely couldve been the moment she abstracted, because of the mask zooble gave her- and we dont get to have a super blatant explanation of zoobles thoughts on it, but they reach a fairly healthy conclusion about it that helps both of them, and i like that a lot, because on paper zooble could be placed at fault but the narrative doesnt dwell on it excessively, because thats not the point. i dont know if that tangent makes sense but i think about it sometimes. i think zooble wasnt 'to blame' but it was still a mistake, which is a hard balance to strike, and having them help at the end feels extremely effective at rounding it off!!!)
but like. in general its complicated balancing making characters in a bad situation act flawed because it can run the risk of seeming like the story is scolding them or blaming them for the situation theyre in, or like youre expected to not sympathize with them despite it (though the inverse also has complications- if characters in a bad situation never mess up, it feels unrealistic and hard to relate to, and can imply that their innocence is why whats happening to them is bad at all), but the show handles it so well
even the characters who are genuinely trying all try in different ways- some of them have similar outlooks or attitudes towards these thing but theres vital differences for ALL of them- sometimes it works and sometimes it doesnt. in fact some of the more painful mistakes characters have made in the show have come from them so genuinely trying (like the thing i mentioned w zooble, or basically Everything Ragatha Does, or pomnis first attempt at helping gangle, etc), which hits harder than if every mistake characters made had wholly selfish and cruel goals.
i mean, there is a selfishness to many of the characters' actions but imo not in a way thats not warranted. because all of them are in a horrible setting. its uncomfortable to watch characters be selfish. but it is a natural instinct to survive. its not the foundation of most of their actions, but when it is, its uncomfortable but hard to completely disparage them for in a way that makes you feel kinda conflicted
and like. it hurts to be doing your best and for that to make things worse, but its what happens often in the show. because no one in a bad situation is gonna handle it well. by the very nature of trying to survive something is gonna give, but it makes the themes of the show so much more powerful. that making sure the people around you dont feel unloved, cherishing them and finding meaning with others is no less important just because everyone is fucking up. it complicates things, for sure, but it doesnt make those characters exempt fromt this. theres a reason pomni tells gummigoo that she doesnt want "anyone" to feel like theyre nothing, and that kinger doesnt add ANY quallifiers to making sure people feel wanted and loved (not that i think either of them were thinking SUPER super hard, but it conveys smth from the perspective of the narrative
it gets complicated when you add in jax for sure, since i think on the surface he IS the exception to this concept- none of the characters like him, including pomni or kinger. but i think this is something thats gonna be examined further down the line, bc hes the main complicating factor in this reading of the show, but i feel like thats on purpose. hes universally disliked (and so is caine, in a different way) and his actions arent mistakes. they are him coping. the show has made it clear that he can be a complex person AND also a piece of shit. his actions dont detract from the fact that hes a person and the show reminds us of this. so it makes things so messy, but im genuinely super excited to see how the show examines that. where his character goes is, imo, going to be a massive piece of how this show fleshes out this concept
#tadc#it just makes me so... man#all of them are coping in a way that influences their mistakes#like. i think the best example i could name is ragatha. she highlights this aspect of the show so well#shes struggling so much. shes doing her best to stay optimistic and because the others dont feel as hopeful as she presents herself#it distances them from her#she wants people to like her SO bad which reads so hard as fawning. but this also puts people off and makes her harder to trust#even if her care for the others is genuine the issue is that how she copes tends to leave her a little isolated in some way shape or form#and thats *just* ragatha#i shoudl write smth properly breaking down how this is done w the whole cast#cus i cannot fit it in these tags#so i gotta put a pin in it.... but. have this#also ive said it before but i very genuinely think jax SHOULD get the chance to heal#i mean. i wouldnt like him if i had to know him in person. but i dont think thats . actually relevant#so how the show dissects his character going forward intrigues me and i wanna keep an eye on it so much#it is a BOLD move writing wise to establish him as a piece of shit and then to set up these ideas#cus theyre going somewhere im sure. they keep bringing it up#anywayyyyy. thats the post#sorry if any of it got confusing i have a lot of thoughts abt this but they get a tad jumbled bc theres just. so many factors#i need to make an essay outline before i make these posts LMAOOOOOO#OH YEAH WAIT#bonus:#i think abt how pomni abandons ragatha TWICE in ep 1 and i think it could make someone dislike her#but genuinely. makes me like her more. sometimes people get extremely selfish when theyre scared#its bad! but it makes sense. and it makes her feel so much more real#smth smth theres that saying that how someone acts under pressure says more abt them#but like. its complicated. because an easy way to get someone to act mean is to make them scared#esp since the phrase is more attributed to a crisis. but in tadc this is just their forever#and looong drawn out trauma makes people behave very differently#gestures. i dont have the words to break down that phrase wrt this show but maybe ill try later too. put a pin in that one as well
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#I was trying to figure out what to post for nye#and this video is always so great and a perfect throwback#both t&k have had an up and down year#in different ways for different reasons#but I’m hoping it’s ending better than how it was in the beginning#not crazy optimistic globally because gestures around at everything#but still wishing the best for everyone personally of course#gotta find joy when you can#happy new year y’all#2025 is what it is lol
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Go off queen
It's your blog and you should be able to talk about whatever you want after all
aww thank you 🥺 i appreciate it <33
i do really not like spreading negativity esp when it's on a topic i have strong feelings about, and let's say the D.A fandom especially tends to be. extreme about the way it reacts to people disagreeing with them.
And look. I'm not immune to it because sometimes i get caught up by the genuinely rancid vibe in the fandom as well, and i think those games are designed for us to have strong feelings to start with.
but it also means i don't want to go too deep into controversial thoughts because i genuinely don't want to get to a point where i'll see someone screenshot my posts to dunk on it and say i'm the reason media literacy is dead and why the fandom is so toxic (citing things i've actually seen on said blog, for instance though not directed at me but at takes i've seen taken out of context. except i knew the context so knew this was a bad faith argument.).
Like can't even dislike shits in peace in here.
#sorry this is probably my most solas moment but i try to be kind and stuff#and when i discuss things level headed with people i do think i'm pretty humble#i don't think i have the ultimate readings and i am likely super wrong about things all the time#because analysis remains also an emotional approach and it can't be helped#and i need to hold on to this humility to not get caught on in my own head#analysis is also pretty much shapped by experience and i do not have the final reading on things#and sometimes things can be decent in one way but fumble another#and what will be important to not fumble will be different from one person to the next#depending to the themes that resonated with you to start with#but when i see people dunk on feelings i have while taking them out of context and also being rude about it#and then saying 'media literacy is dead'#i feel myself turning into a pride demon on the spot#sorry i only have two literature analysis diplomas i graduated from in two languages with praises for my analytic skills#and with a teacher genuinely begging me to continue advanced literature analysis classes because my approach was rare and precious#so clearly i don't know what i'm talking about at all and i'm the idiot here#like holy shit. lol.#this fandom is still the one i dislike the most and alas the fact i dislike the 4th game doesn't help#bc i really was hopeful and optimistic about it! i didnt want to dislike it!!!!#but i at least don't want to be taken for an idiot for it#but coughs. anyway. so that's one of the reason i'm not petty on main#the real reason is i don't want to impose that on my followers. I don't like being negative needlessly.#the second reason is that if i'm met with hostility where someone act like i'm dumb i will do things i will regret.#It's just that no one saw this side of me there most time because you've all been nice to me here#again. this is my solas moment. one of the reasons my therapist goes 😬 when i talk about him#ichareply#anonymous#ichasalty
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i still feel like the money from the egg figures is gonna go to the eggmins, including lumi and shade and anyone else that has left/been fired [maybe with the exception of like, flippa and tilín’s original admins since they were only there for less than a month but who knows]
like i agree that the way quackity is going about things sucks, with his mindset being that because he doesn’t want to make promises he can’t keep he won’t say anything at all, but i don’t think it means the eggmins won’t be paid. i’d assume, based on what he’s said, that he’s waiting to see how much money the merch makes before he promises anyone any amount of money. which again. is dumb, because if that is the case he could still just Say That. but i don’t think it’s a baseless assumption at the very least
#.txt#discourse#qadmin situation#sorry if this is worded weird i’m like half asleep rn#i’m still keeping optimistic#i know quackity has fucked up a lot and will probably still continue to do so for a bit#and it is very frustrating#but i can also see that he’s trying#i think he needs to shift his mindset a bit and work more on actually talking to people#even if it’s just telling them to hold tight while he works through things#honestly if things don’t improve within the next few weeks i’ll probably get a bit harsher#because like. c’mon man. i know this is gonna take months to sort out#that much is obvious#but if he can’t at least improve communication soon it’s like#there’s only so much benefit of the doubt i can give#but for now i’ll hold on to hope that he can fix things#idk i have a lot of thoughts on this situation that i don’t think i can get across correctly#i’m not letting quackity off the hook but i’m also willing to give him more time before i start saying he’s like#an awful person or whatever#i mean i don’t think he is regardless based on what i know of him but ykwim
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guess who finally got ✨✨medicated✨✨
#not wc#yarrow speaks#idk how long its going to take to find an effective dose#im just rly hoping i will be able to actually do the tasks that I want to do#instead of like. despite spending the whole day wanting to write rly rly bad#all my brain does when i finally sit down is stare at a blank doc for 6+ hours because having a train of thought is like.#trying desperately to put down train tracks in front of me as i go#but the tracks I just set down behind me are floating away in the wind the second my back is turned so i just have to keep starting over#and hoping surely this time i will be able to organize this thought train and it won't all get kicked into a useless brain tornado#does that metaphor make ANY got damn sense do u FEEL me i'm floundering lmao#this is not getting into the mountain of adult tasks I have been neglecting my whole adult life oopsy#anyway i got diagnosed with ADD like so fast#the real kicker i think was that I licherally Can't Drive because my brain can't stop dipping into a spaced out daydream every 30 sec#ANYWAY. I like to optimistically think maybe I will actually be able to finish personal projects in the near future
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I don't want to brag or sound too optimistic about it, but after three weeks of training at a private college, I think my lessons with this one particular immigrant student (who has serious motivational problems lemme tell ya) are finally starting to get through and there's been improvement.
Only slight improvement so far but I have spotted some, so maybe not all hope is lost yet.
Remains to be seen I guess.
#personal#so in case anyone's still wondering i'm studying to become a tutor/instructor/guidance counselor etc. etc. whatever it's called in english#and currently i mostly work with immigrants with language. sometimes i help high school students as well. but mostly immigrants#and there's this one immigrant student who's been there since last spring. and he still barely even knows the basics because he's 'given up#according to him that is. he told me this at least three times yesterday and i told him that's a problem#so i've been trying to hammer it through his head that he can't be sitting in classes and using his phone when he's supposed to be learning#or expect me or teachers giving him all the answers when he also needs to show a little effort and help us back as well#and that he needs to participate in pair and group activities in classes because we're a team and we need to work together#so basically he's been asking me to either teach him or then find someone who can teach him#i told one of our teachers this and she answered that he could also participate in evening activities at the college but he's not doing tha#and according to him he doesn't 'mingle'. so i told him maybe he should once in a while. get out of his comfort zone. at least try#to my surprise he actually showed up to one of the evening activities that i hosted. didn't do much anything there but sit but still#that was effort. he did exactly what i said despite it making him a little uncomfortable so that's improvement#so then yesterday he asked me about teaching him the language again. i told him i host a homework club at tuesdays & thursdays @ 3:30-4:30p#he showed up there yesterday and was the only student. so i had time to teach him basic greetings. weekdays. months. things he shoulda know#and i thought it's all probably in vain but i tried. so today. he was in their class and actually doing pair work and reading stuff aloud#and even translating some stuff when i asked. calling it easy. and that he's trying to use his phone less and memorize this stuff instead#to which the rest clapped at and cheered him on for. and i told this to the teacher afterwards when she asked me about him. and she gave#me a thumbs up and looked a little surprised but also delighted. because he's been a popular subject amongst ourselves for a reason#so i don't want to get too optimistic about it. because he still has an attitude problem. but he's tried a little at least. so there's hope
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we've hit the final hour of 2023 in our timezone............
#im anxious but cautiously optimistic i think#january 1st is rough for personal reasons but. im trying to stay hopeful
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I think I've mentioned this before but the college I'm going to has essentally roommate tinder to help you find a roommate. It tells you what academic college their in (ie. Fine arts, business, health and human services) and some answers to questions everyone who opted into roommate tinder had to answer about living habits (how often you'll be in the room, how clean you are, go to bed and wake up early/late and some interests you pick off a list), I chose gender inclusive housing cause that basically guarantees i get to live with another queer person so it also tells you their gender identity and if they're trans or not and then it gives you their school email to try and connect. All that's fine and dandy but ong making friends through email sucks ass guys 💀💀💀. I've reached out to two people since it went live two weeks ago and no one has responded to me. I'm gonna try reaching out to a third person today but like goddamn this shit sucks.
#this is not making me optimistic about my friend making prospects for college#im just trying to trust that when i show up to marching band making friends will work like it did in high school marching band#like i do not remember consciously making any of my friends but id also kill a man for them only mild questions asked#we just kinda bonded and now we're stuck with each other#i don't think im just doing things too early cause room selection is in early june#Last year it was the third and I feel like I'm not the only one who wants to at least meet in person#cause yknow the stranger id potentially be living with for the next school year#we get to pick the literal room we'll be staying in so if i dont have a roommate itll give me that info if someones already in that room#but id rather meet them in person first before being bonded by a housing contract#its not even like i can pick a room in the fine arts living learning community and be like “oh theyre queer too itll be fine”#cause ive absolutly adored about 50-60% of all the queer fine arts people ive met and absolutly loathed the other 40-50%#someone convince me somebody on roommate tinder will want to be my friend 😭😭😭#cause i dont think its like “oh they just dont check their school email” cause if you wanted to reach out to anyone you have to email#im just hoping the people ive reached out to are like my friend who needs to do roommate finder for his school but just hasnt#either cause dont wanna or cause its overwhelming#and half these people are like me and unntracable online#ive tried instagram tiktok and even facebook#cause if they did marching band in high school they probably would have a facebook page#cause marching band partially operates through facebook#its a bunch of old people running it#so literally practically all my 15-18 year old friends have Facebook in 2025 because of band#college#roommates
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I have actually been working incredibly hard to limit my social media to either non political things or political news with direct action spelled out, and to set aside a single day a week to read and engage with and catch up with the news beyond that. And I've been working really hard on focusing on what I can control, which is mainly improving how functional my living space is and pouring my energy into gardening so that I have enough food crops to share sell And eat and make sure everyone I know has food. And I'm working on my health and my mental health and my routine and all these things while my grandfather's dementia gets worse by the day and the country is falling into fascism in a way that feels like every day a new specialized scope on a snipers rifle clicks into place and I'm trying to not feel this stuff on a daily basis but actually have space to feel it that one time a week and it is all so. Hard
#like every day feels surreal and dissociative more than anything#but i press on and keep moving bc im afraid of what happens if I stop#and keep being this cool calm collected person to my local trans community being a voice of reason against panic and misinformation and#helping nudge people trying to organize in directions that will help them be much more successful at doing so and holding space for people#living at the absolute crux of all of these attacks and trying to do so very optimistically and validating and carefully#but one time a week i am allowed to feel it#and its all so surreal i frel like im already losing track of how to do that#i dont really have words for whst it feels like to turn compost and hope my plane doesnt crash in the new era of cutbacks and slashes#i dont reallt uave words for a lot of ti
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Why I changed my artist handle

I know I'm not exactly a big name blog or known (or even frequent) artist but I still feel a little obligated to make this post for myself. Comikachi was my artist name when I was a teenager who dreamed of being a full time artist- whatever avenue that ended up being (animation, game dev, comics, comms, etc). Forcing myself into trying to streamline my art to be "faster" and only working on "productive" pieces really skyrocketed my anxiety which in turn made me draw less and less until I just watched my style fall to pieces and I hated the sight of it. I hated my art so much I packed away all my sketchbooks and physical art supplies because I didn't think my art was worthy of being put upon them- so I drew on discard receipts and discarded printer misprints (and before moving to the city I would burn them). It's a level of self loathing I didn't realize until recently. Ashes of Cynder might end up being temporary but it's a gamer tag I've held for about the same amount of time I've been Comikachi. There really isn't much to it, I really loved Cinder from the Spyro games as a kid and needed a name to make a game account. It really isn't any deeper than that but I could make up a few heartfelt/heartwrenching reasons if you want. So yeah, I'm not gonna force myself into a schedule or whatever but I am gonna start sharing WIPs on here
#adulthood has also been kicking my ass for nearly a decade and im not the same hopeful and optimistic person i was back then#and it feels gross trying to convince myself that i am still that person#personal#rant#art#oc#e'jil ordd#oc_ejil
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it’s so frustrating dealing with something that takes time to try to tame cos it’s like oh put this stuff on your face and take these meds and see if there’s any improvement 3 months from now and in the meantime I’m just filled with this dread that it’s not going to work bc I can’t see signs of improvement yet even though I know it’s early days and I’m not likely to see improvement until a few weeks in at least
#I hope I can get it to a manageable level but a lot is also going to be a long process of figuring out what helps and what aggravates#id rather I didn’t have to deal with this bc I am a naturally super stressed person so I’m already at a disadvantage in terms of trying to#manage that. And I’m not optimistic that i even can but I have to hope otherwise I’m gonna end up miserable#And then theres the fact this won’t cure it it’ll at best improve some elements of it but the job falls to me to try to keep it tamed#But with the reluctantly accepted acknowledgment that even with the best efforts it’ll probably relapse anyway
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╰┈➤Misunderstood
Summary: How the gang finds out about Sukuna's girlfriend in a misunderstanding.
Relationship: Ryomen Sukuna/Reader
Word count: 3.0k
Note: I'm a liar, I know I said this would go up yesterday, in my defense we set very optimistic goals. Please comment and feel free to send me anything to my inbox
-‘๑’-: No curses au, uni au, sfw, humor, fluff, bad english

The house of the twins Yuji and Ryomen seemed more lively than normal, as every weekend they had planned a movie afternoon, the meetings began early after leaving school, buying snacks, preparing comfortable clothes and choosing some games of table.
Yuji's face wrinkled into a displeased grimace at seeing his twin dressing casually to go out for a walk down the street, while he and his friends were already prepared wearing their comical pajamas, it wasn't fair. This time it was Yuji's turn to choose the movie so as not to let his brother get away with it.
“What are you doing?”
Sukuna turned to look for a second indifferently at his brother while he finished fastening the buttons of his dark shirt. How could he take seriously his brother who maintained an irritated pout while wearing those ridiculous tiger-themed full-body pajamas?
"I'm going out, tell mom I'll be late"
Yuji's moan of annoyance echoed throughout the house, drawing the attention of Nobara and Megumi who were stealthily trying to spy on the conversation by hiding behind a wall.
"You said you would watch Human Worm 4 with us today!"
The one with the caramel eyes began to complain about the injustice that was occurring, a perfect time for his faithful friends to take action.
“We already prepared everything, you can't leave us stranded for an afternoon of movies!”
Nobara grumbled as she tried to fix the sleeves of her raccoon pajamas.
"We made a pact, you must suffer with us"
Megumi was supposed to be the most mature of the group, perhaps Sukuna had overestimated him because he never imagined seeing him share the same neuron as his friends while also wearing ridiculous beige dog pajamas.
“It's a shame brats, it'll have to be another day.”
The older twin's hands didn't stop moving trying to find the car keys; he had somehow managed to look appropriately with a hint of elegance, but without losing that menacing aura, a pair of black pants held up by an expensive belt that he had stolen from his father, a dark gray shirt with the first few buttons open showing his collarbones and the sleeves perfectly arranged at his elbows showing his tattooed arms.
"You look like a criminal"
“Who said I'm not?”
Itadori's intentions to plant some blame on his brother for abandoning them on a seemingly important night were noticeable for miles.
"At least have the decency to tell me where the hell you're going."
Sukuna took a while to respond, his eyes straying suspiciously and the trio could see a slight nervousness on his face. Wait, nerves? Sukuna? Those words were naturally contrary, it even seemed strange to put them together in one sentence. Here was definitely another shoe that was taking a while to drop.
"Mind your own business, don't be nosy"
Itadori instantly stood between his brother and the front door, blocking his way, he would get to the bottom of this matter at any cost.
"Are you planning something bad? Mom will be angry if you get into trouble again"
"Yes, yes, yes. I plan to do many bad and illegal things, in fact in this mood I plan to strangle the first person in front of me"
Itadori, Nobara, and Megumi looked at each other before leaving the hallway clear, letting Sukuna walk.
"Behave badly, take good care of yourself and if they discover you, deny everything"
“See you”
Once the so-called evil twin left the house, the hallway was completely silent for a few seconds.
“Don't you feel...? Curiosity?"
An excited Nobara looked at her friends with bright, gossip-hungry eyes.
"No not really"
Megumi's voice was ignored as Itadori pushed the Fushiguro boy's face away with his hand.
"I was hoping you'd ask, Nobara! In fact, my brother has been acting strange lately."
Itadori put on a thoughtful expression as he remembered his brother's unusual behavior in recent weeks.
"What do you mean he's been acting strange?"
At that moment Nobara had taken on a detective attitude, while the previously disinterested Megumi began to listen attentively to his friends.
“He's been coming home late, more than usual.”
“That doesn't seem strange for someone like him.”
An exalted Itadori raises his hands dramatically as he defends his argument.
“But when he is usually late it is always because he is causing problems in the streets and he is not at all careful with his arrival, now it is different!”
Sharing a room with Itadori, Sukuna didn't care how scandalous he could be when he showed up at home after curfew. He didn't pay attention to the fact that the noise of his shoes being thrown to any side of the room or that the sound of his swear words every time he tripped over something could disturb his brother's sleep.
Lately, however, the nights that Sukuna had spent late away from home had become more frequent, and Itadori couldn't help but notice even in the dead of night how messy his twin's clothes were every time he returned with silent footsteps and he also did not overlook the large number of marks that stood out on Sukuna's neck.
“Also, he has been trying hard in all his school subjects, he has turned in all his homework and sometimes he goes out to the library to study. Did you hear what I said? He goes to the library to study!”
“That's definitely not the Sukuna we know, something is happening to him.”
The three teenagers headed to the living room to sit down to discuss more calmly and solve that mystery.
“Do you think someone is bullying him?”
Itadori looked worried for a split second at Nobara's statement until Megumi gave him a strange, brief sarcastic smile.
“Are you serious right now? Do you think Sukuna, the most feared man on campus, could be bothered by someone? Jesus Christ even earned the nickname “The King of Curses”
They didn't need much time to agree with Megumi, it was impossible to imagine Sukuna being submissive to anyone.
“True, it would make more sense for him to be the one who bothered someone… It can't be possible”
“I told him clearly not to get into trouble, but he never listens to me!”
“Wait, Yuji, calm down. Don't you think that if that's the case, he's spending too much time on that person?”
Itadori seemed to think about it for a second and his face transformed into one of much more dramatic horror than before.
"So he really hates that person! Maybe he's planning a murder? Your brother isn't exactly known for being patient"
Nobara's words were the little push Itadori needed to panic.
"Sukuna definitely can't go to the correctional facility again!... Mom was very sad back then..."
Nobara and Megumi looked into each other's eyes, unable to abandon their friend in such a situation.
"Fine! Our mission today is to prevent your brother from becoming a criminal.”
"Are we allowed to use force? I still have to get revenge for the books I lent him."
The brown-haired girl, Kugisaki, was the first to stand up and was followed by Fushiguro. It seemed like a scene worthy of a movie, this was the motivational part because both friends extended their hands to the boy in tiger pajamas.
“Wait, wait, wait… What happened to your books?”
“I'll ask your brother when I see him.”
It had been approximately 30 minutes since the trio of friends had located and followed Sukuna, a difficult mission that had begun with the friends running after the older twin's car. The fatigue was overcome by surprise when seeing the target enter a flower shop.
“We're late, he's already planning the funeral!”
“Wait, give him the benefit of the doubt, maybe… Maybe he's going to visit a friend?”
“Impossible, my brother has no friends”
Nobara and Yuji's brief talk was interrupted when they saw Sukuna leaving that flower shop with a huge and pretty bouquet of yellow carnations.
"You see it? Maybe your brother is not as bad as he seems” Nobara's voice tried to be optimistic, and it also seemed strange to her that a man would buy flowers for no apparent reason.
“Now I'm quite confused” Itadori, for his part, narrowed his eyes, staring at Sukuna, trying to read his brother's mind.
Megumi spoke with a stiff voice drawing the attention of his friends.
"Don't be so surprised, in the language of flowers, carnations of that color mean contempt"
"Is he turning his assassination attempt into a performance? He's getting creative"
"Hey, he's leaving. Hurry up"
The gang quickly got into a taxi and like every chase scene, Itadori and Nobara yelled at the driver to follow the car in front of them, Megumi had to apologize to the driver at the end of the ride.
Sukuna drove his car until he reached the darkest and most dangerous neighborhood that anyone could imagine, clearly that place had an invisible sign indicating that it was better not to be there, there were few passers-by and the streets were cold with graffiti everywhere.
The older twin got out of his car after having entered the area a little, he walked as if that place was his territory, as if he felt at home, he adjusted the sleeves of his shirt, raising them to his elbows, with a bored look he observed the time on his watch and then leaned his back against the wall waiting patiently. Meanwhile, the trio had remained hidden behind a pile of boxes and seemingly useless objects, thinking about Ryomen's intentions.
"There isn't a soul in this place, what is he planning to do?"
Itadori's question was answered when Megumi held his jaw making him look to his right, his eyes widened as he saw a girl with a small frame, transmitting an aura of delicacy and fragility, she was the complete stereotype of a little princess wearing a pink dress and white sneakers, light makeup and a flower crown adorning her hair, she looked out of context walking with a smile and humming a song in that horrible alley.
"It can't be her... There's no way Sukuna..."
Nobara's words were cut off when the red-eyed man put out his cigarette and walked over to where the girl was with a proud smile on his face.
The fear that this small, fragile woman could be hurt by his violent brother made Itadori quickly get up from his hiding place and stand in front of his brother.
"Sukuna! Stop right there, don't do it!"
The sudden entrance of his nosy brother surprised Sukuna who maintained a displeased scowl at his twin's actions.
"What the fuck? Get out of the way brat, I'm on something important right now"
"Don't you dare take another step, don't do something you'll regret!"
Itadori's voice took a drastic change, sounding too threatening compared to his usual cheerful tone.
"What the hell are you talking about? Leave me alone, I don't have time for this."
Sukuna looked at the horrified girl who was just a few meters away from him, he pushed his brother away with one hand with the intention of walking towards where she was, however he was stopped and subdued on the ground by Megumi.
“Don't even try it, you disgusting scoundrel.”
“Leave me alone, you fucking bastards!”
While the three men argued and fought among themselves, Nobara also came out of her hiding place and walked towards the frightened woman, being careful not to exalt her even more, Kugisaki placed his hands on her shoulders trying to calm her down.
"Are you okay? “Did he do something to you?”
The girl's hands remained covering her mouth, completely surprised by the situation. She instantly left Nobara and ran quickly to where Sukuna was lying on the ground.
"What are you doing?! Get your hands off him!"
Megumi and Itadori's movements stopped, still holding Sukuna on the ground, they turned to look completely surprised at the owner of that little voice, their minds went blank as they watched her approach, she put her hands on Fushiguro's chest. making an attempt to push him away from the red-eyed twin.
"What are you doing to my boyfriend?! Leave him alone!"
Still bewildered, Itadori was the first to move away and placed a hand on his friend's shoulder for him to do the same, allowing Sukuna to stand up a little dazed.
"I don't know what 'Kuna did to you, but what you are doing is not right, it is not right to intimidate others, problems are solved by talking"
You stood in front of your boyfriend trying to be the one to defend him this time, you used to be a little shy when talking to strangers, but you weren't going to let your lover be the victim of such an unfair situation.
"Honey, calm down. They are—"
"No, love! They were very mean to you, no matter who they are!"
You knew that Sukuna had a special weakness for you that made him want to protect you from any danger, everyone told you that, obviously he would also want to take control of this situation in his hands. No, this time it was your turn to protect him, to be his knight in shining armor.
On the other hand, there were also the three idiots who had tried to play detective, watching the situation in astonishment.
"She... just called him love"
“Yes, she really did”
"I can't believe it"
Ryomen had tried to calm his girlfriend's little anger by taking her hands and caressing them, it worked for a few seconds until that trio spoke again.
Upon hearing the incredulous voices of those strangers, you let go of Sukuna's hands and walked a few steps close to those you thought were criminals.
"Listen, my parents are very important people, I will make sure you are punished appropriately"
Your acute and sweet angry voice was silenced by Sukuna's lips, one of his large hands finding a place on your waist while the other caressed your soft cheek.
"It's okay, princess"
"No, it's not okay-"
You tried to reply to his deep voice, you would be lying if you said it didn't make you shiver, his voice was only directed at you, only for you to hear, that made you calm down and also lowered the tone of your voice.
"Pretty, this is my stupid brother and his friends."
"...Impossible, it can't be…, they were subduing you"
"Don't worry, I'm sure they have a good explanation for doing all this, right?"
The affectionate look that Sukuna had given his supposed girlfriend had changed drastically when he turned to look at his friends, removed his touch from his beloved and walked towards the frightened trio, cracking the fingers of his fists.
"Last words?"
Approximately 10 minutes had passed after that disastrous encounter, Sukuna had considered himself generous that day so he decided to take his brother and his friends to the house where they should have stayed from the beginning, very kind, it had nothing to do with his girlfriend will look at those three idiots like abandoned puppies.
"How were we supposed to know you were visiting your girlfriend?"
"What kind of dates are you taking her on?"
"Yeah, you looked like you were about to commit a crime!"
Of course Itadori, Megumi and Nobara tested their patience throughout the car ride, complaining from the back seats and trying to alleviate the pain caused by the car owner's blows. Your curious little eyes turned to look at the trio with intrigue.
"Why do you say that?"
None of them knew how to answer your question, the answer was so obvious that they thought you were stupid or blind, of course none of them said that thought out loud, not when they felt Sukuna's psychopathic gaze in the rearview mirror. However, that didn't stop Yuji from continuing the conversation either.
"You were alone in that horrible and dangerous place, it is the perfect opportunity for a madman"
"Oh, that..."
Your calm reaction to that comment only confused them more, you were too sweet to be in those places and even worse to be there with Sukuna for no good reason.
"Her parents are renowned people and they do not agree with our relationship, that is why we must meet in the most discreet places possible"
"Sometimes dad hires people to watch me, so our meeting point for dates is that place."
The older twin's words left the dynamic trio thinking, especially Itadori and Nobara, Megumi didn't really care much, your complementation made them imagine a current version of Romeo and Juliet. The explanations of your strange relationship had clarified most of his doubts regarding the strange day.
"Wait, what about the flowers?"
Nobara's comment made all the attention focus on Ryomen who wrinkled his face in confusion until he remembered the detail that his friend was talking about at the same time that he stopped the car in front of his house.
"What flowers?"
"Oh right, I brought you something"
Sukuna got out of the car and went to the back taking something out of the trunk, a nice big bouquet of flowers appeared in front of you held by your handsome boyfriend.
"Oh, honey, you shouldn't have bothered."
"It's no bother when I can make you happy"
You received the beautiful flowers in your small hands, allowing yourself to smell them, such a fresh smell while you lovingly observed your loved one and he returned the same look, absorbed in that cloying atmosphere.
Of course that beautiful moment was not the most comfortable for everyone present, much less for Yuji Itadori imitating his twin with a shrill and annoying voice, since he had never seen his brother in that silly state.
"It's no bother when I can make you happy"
“I'm going to kick your ass”
Megumi couldn't stay silent for long either, because something kept echoing in her mind.
"But the meaning of flowers..."
"Excuse me?"
You looked at him with a smile so sweet and innocent that he hesitated for a second on his next words.
“Those flowers have a negative meaning…”
"It's funny you think my 'Kuna knows the meaning of flowers"
"We should have assumed that"
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I really hope that meme is satire bc I will NOT stand for that
Seeing the talk about IDW Silver in Twitter, I'm convinced that the people who are, quote-on-quote 'fans' of 'Silver', doesn't really like the real him.
In which I mean, they don't really like how he's exactly like the rest of the male characters. Serious, tempered and cool. They want UWU cinnamon rolls.
Like, IDW is already filled with the writers' OCs, why not make one so that Silver doesn't have to suffer from his so called 'fans' fanfic perception of him.
Look no further.
#sksndjsksksks i can literally apply ALL of the chad qualities to 06#pure boi? despite being desperate to try anything to stop the literal massacre of his world#he still questioned whether there was a way to do it without killing even one person#also he was even harshly criticized by some for being ‘way too gullible’#does cool psychic things? HELLO?#WHICH boss battle does everyone hate because of how thoroughly he destroys you?#he routinely took down a literal GOD all by himself#probably drinks respect women juice? sure 👍#he had a close relationship with a woman based off mutual respect#and was kind to amy#even helping her find some random friend of hers before continuing on his mission (which is extremely important to him)#is an optimist and a realist? um thats a major part of his personality?#his entire life has been an apocalypse#hes been fighting hellish monsters since 7y/o- of course he is a realist#youd wonder how hes not a pessimist but his hope; his optimism is what kept him going#nuanced personality? ab-so-lute-ly!!! and also kinda meshes with the realism/optimism#he is a truly formidable fighter and a relentless survivor#but everything he does; his reason for living through crisis city; is out of care for others#he is rough around the edges and extremely practical- yet he carries with him a torn page of a picture book for comfort#his words are decisive and passionate- yet he is unsure inside and need a grounding presence to stay collected#cinnamon roll? rolls a little into the previous one#hes just a bit of a stale cinnamon roll- or maybe looks like he could kill but is actually a cinnamon roll#he is moved at simple beauties and shows kindness to any stranger he meets (unless they attack him ofc)#he has seen many horrors but he still tries to stay sweet :)#(& if we could see more time with him not actively under severe stress i think he would be able to be lighter#friendship with blaze so strong it survived being erased from existence? his friendship was SO strong yall#he was going to sacrifice himself without a second thought#but when blaze moved to take over he physically couldn’t bring himself to seal her away#is doing his best? doing his best?????? he is trying so hard 😭#silver the hedgehog
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a comic on megatron after the events of transformers prime: predacons rising. for some bonus overthinking notes on this comic: "feel less than know" infers on how megatron doesn't look back at the sparks exploding in the back or what happens at the well of allsparks to confirm optimus' death; he just feels it. feels that optimus is gone. and he doesn't go back to confirm it ("I will not look for traces of you.")
the roads no longer remember their history because cybertron is in absolute ruins as a result of their civil war, only they remember their shared history because everything that resembled or had traces of the history be it in the old places they visited or buildings, has been completely destroyed. and only megatron is left to retrace them and reminisce but he states that he doesn't want optimus by his side. if he truly doesn't or is trying to lie to himself can be up to interpretation. the last panel has megatron finally out of bounds of the panels themselves; he is free because for once he doesn't long for optimus in choosing to mourn him. because for the longest time megatron has always been driven by this sense of chasing optimus.
i personally do interpret this ending as a hopeful and optimistic one for megatron, but of course you can take it in however you'd like and tell me about it^^ this is just my own take on megatron's feelings post-predacons rising; particularly with not only the last of his feelings being obsessed with optimus that had driven him but also other things that had controlled him. the council. unicron. he is no longer shackled by them, for once he isn't fighting against anything and he's all on his own.
#transformers prime#megatron#transformers#tfp megatron#tfp#megop#tfp megop#i mean it could also be interpreted as not megop#really depends on how true megatron's words ring here#how much of his words are him trying to convince himself or actual declarations of his feelings#much to think
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